Well, right about now in my life, i'm approaching the "oh sweet jesus what am i going to do in the fall" moment.
I'm impatiently waiting to hear from the University of Ottawa to see whether I got accepted into history honours. I'm also tearing my hair out while pouring over my finances...praying I can scrape enough by to pay for school in the fall. After all, I've already had to fall behind one semester to make enough for going back to school. I would die if I had to do it again. My third problem arises from a housing situation. Living on campus is expensive enough, but the problem with that is paying all my housing up front, instead of the monthly rent i would have living off campus. Having all that money up front plus tuition and books just isn't going to happen! So, I must resign myself to living off school property. Here again, there are problems. Living by myself, ain't gonna happen. WAY too expensive. Living with strangers: Not my cup of tea, we'll call that plan 'if nothing else happens and i'm absolutely desperate then i'll do it'
Now, I had contemplated living with 2 friends of mine. Alas, they haven't quite gotten back to me on the whole housing issue, and now one of them is planning on living in Australia next year, so unless i'm moving down under, i won't be living with her.
All in all, I find my university experience has been severally warped by this non stop nagging fear over money, housing, and other such stupidities. This was the same last year, happened this year, and next years woes leave me awake long into the night. Is this really fair? All this, just to get an education and get ahead in life. It seems like the only way i'll be going is further in debt, at this rate. I had hoped to avoid another student loan, but if i must take one out for housing...
I wish I was in Germany, where school is free, and chocolate can be found on every street corner....eep, I've been on weight watchers for a week, i'm starting to go nuts.
For everyone out there with even an ounce of sympathy for me, please pray for me, for patience, and that I will find a way to achieve my goals, no matter the obsticles.
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One day at a time, one shift at McDonald's at a time, one paycheck into the savings account at a time, being steady and faithful to what you know you need to do right now in order to be where you want to be in 5 months. You're in my prayers, Kels! We all freak out if we look too far down the road...I do as a mother. Oh, my gosh, Micah is going to kindergarten soon and then she'll start liking boys and then she'll hate me because I won't let her use our ugly family fun mobile to go out with her friends...ahhhhh! See what I mean? I don't have to deal with that yet, I have to focus on changing the next poopy diaper, making the next snack, and teaching her letters and numbers. That is way enough in and of itself and yet not so overwhelming that I throw my hands in the air, cry in bed, and then try to forget about it all by watching an Anne of Green Gables marathon while eating a bag of Hershey's Miniatures.
Well said, sister of mine!
It turns out my freaking out was all for not! My friends Katrina and Jen called me last night to let me know they're starting out apartment search today, and for me to just chill out, cause they're handling it. Phew. One thing down!
rent for an apt. - 450/month
tuition for univ. - several thousand
books - 700-800
food and alc. at univ. - hundreds/month
student loans, debt, and a subsequent decleration of bankruptcy later in life to avoid paying them back - the answer to your prayers
I knew there was a reason I always go to you for advise sina!
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